Well.... I have been surfing around Ebay for months now looking over the various things that a person like me might look at. Software, jewelry, Rhodesian Ridgeback clocks. You name it I have considered it. Anyway, I finally got up the nerve to bid on something that comes with a hefty price tag, a laptop computer that I have wanted for a long time. You ask, "why do you need ANOTHER computer?" Well, my hubby is somewhat coveting of his laptop and I cannot run my programs that I use at work at home because they need a PC. And when I am gone on all these trips that I have planned for these next few months it would be nice to be able to blog to all of you. I also hate sitting in that dark, lonely, cold room we call an office. Also, if we ever did have a baby the crib would go right where the desktop computer is right now.Have I made enough of a case yet?? I had convinced myself lastnight that I did need it.
So.... I found a computer that I wanted on Ebay and came up with a mental price ( you have heard of that term before, right?? it is very different from what the actual price you end up paying will be) and waited until there was about 5 minutes left on the auction and made my bid. And for about 1 minute I was the highest bidder. Then I refreshed my screen and someone had outbid me by $10. Well ok, I can go up another $50 I suppose, what would it hurt. This process continued about 2 more times until I had sold my soul for that laptop in a mere 5 minutes flat. In the end I came up as winning bidder and my heart was pounding through my chest with addrenaline. I was in a slight manic state from all the excitement when it hit me; I just bought a laptop, WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING?? I am not made of money. I already have two computers. I think it is an addiction that I have, where about every 6 months or so, I get this itching to make a purchase that must exceed $500 and until I satisfy that need I can't sleep or eat or anything.
Soon after the manic occured it quickly ran out and the depressive state set in. I feel like I was used by the whole ebay machine that somehow thrives off of my emotions. So now I await my laptop with a heavy heart. My husband assures me that as soon as I am beating him at Warcraft III on it I will change my mind. I don't know if I will ever be able to completely love it, we will just have to wait and see. However, I vow never to enter that site of lust and greed and glory they call ebay.com. We can only hope my father never sets mouse apon this site, we could lose him forever. Oh, that's right, his fear of the "used" could never be overcome.
Please keep me in your thoughts as I work through these troubling days as I wait for my laptop to arrive. (I even forked out an extra $18 for 2 day shipping!!!)
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I have a thought. Since the rush of emotions is something almost worth the buying, perhaps you should turn around and see how it feels to sell something on Ebay. You post your laptop, then wait. And in the waiting you think of the potential buyers, the money, the last minute bucks you'll make off the frenzy of that lust and want. Who knows? You might even make more money than you paid. Alas, that may start a whole mess of problems.
Perhaps you should relax, enjoy what you've bought, and think, hey, in the scheme of life, this isn't that big of a deal one way or the other. That's what I try and tell myself when I really screw-up anyways.
My computer keeps making noises. Loud noises. Tim copied a bunch of stuff and predicts a short death. Fortunately, I can use his laptop once this dies.
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